Clearly AI is not quite ready to take over the world if Amazon is recommending this book to me:
My internet break was somewhat surprising. I thought I’d be mildly productive (while hoping for insanely productive), but spent most of the time with my head in various books. This is no bad thing.
I have a lot of thoughts on the break.
Even after a week I’m definitely more focussed and less flighty – and dare I say more content. I attend to things more. The change noticeable to others, I’ve had unsolicited comments about how relaxed, calm and centred I appear. Yes really – after just a week.
And I’ve been able to deal calmly with a whole lot of SML stuff which would previously have sent me into a spiral (amongst other things – 3 of my small team leaving within a week of each other!)
I returned to my RSS reader yesterday and boggled at how I have been spending the majority of my free time for the past few years. More than half the blogs in there are not worth my time and only serve to make me feel utterly inadequate and discontent (of course this is not your blog, dear reader!).
It’s quite embarrassing to admit how much of what I do or buy is driven by what I’ve seen or read. I like to think that I’m immune to such influences, but apparently really very much not!
So what does this mean? Well I’m not entirely sure. I think at least I am going to ruthlessly strip that blog list bare and try to only spend time at the computer or on the devices when I have a defined purpose for doing so.
revolt | anarchist revolution | for a world without borders, bosses or bureaucrats
Honestly – you can barely move for anarchist posters around the ‘hood.
Amazingly, the internet-free exercise was a lot less challenging than I’d anticipated. I suspect this was mostly because I had my head shoved in a book, which was probably not entirely in the spirit of the endeavour, but which enjoyed nonetheless.
Interestingly, each time I passed my desk I had the urge to sit down and put hands to keyboard. Of course I resisted because of the project, but wow – I do actually do this all the time – and must lose hours and hours to it!
And I felt, well, relaxed. Really relaxed. And the day felt long and luxuriant – even though I’d slept in until 7:15am (thanks kitties!) and so had an hour less than usual to play with.
So, I’m planning to extend this – give myself an internet-free week. Obviously there will be internet at SML, but for home I’m going to attempt to stay away off Monday 12/02. It will break the daily blog posting chain, but I’m keen to see how this works and what I do with my time.
Will of course report back!
Good thing today: Managed my second 2 day of 5:2. Getting back into it wasn’t as difficult as I expected, as is the way of most things.
Even though I’m having an internet-free day, I couldn’t break the chain of daily posting, so I queued up a BabyKitty.
babykitty on the bed
She’ll be visiting the vet tomorrow for vaccinations, I suspect she will not be quite as peaceful then.
My second pilates class this morning at the new studio (last week being cancelled). Small class and definitely a very different crowd to Glebe – all chatter of back to (primary) school and various teachers and children’s difficulties with long division. While they weren’t exactly a young group, I was definitely the oldest there. I was feeling rather nostalgic for my occasional Friday pilates at my old studio – which was a mix of older semi-retired ladies, a couple of women my age and uni students.
I will persist of course – I have #goalz.
I’m planning to make this my last weekend of self-improvement books before I embark on #13 on the 60before60 list: Read no self-help books for a year. I really love the genre (mostly), but maybe, just maybe the over-consumption is not all that great for my mental health – also it’s an awful lot of time spent reading and less time on improving.
This also includes self-improvement audiobooks – lest I attempt to get around it by switch the consumption to another format.
Fiction here I come!
And I’m attempting my first internet free day tomorrow. I’m aiming for no computer too – but this might be a bridge too far!
Of all the challenges I’ve set myself recently, I suspect this is going to be one of the more difficult.
Will report back – though obviously not tomorrow!
I’d resolved not to post on a phone / tablet screen at night**, but windows has decided to update and is doing so at a very glacial pace.
I’m pleased we’re into the weekend – I suspect next week will be another Trial. I have someone leaving (voluntarily) who will be a Big Loss.
Small goals for the weekend (in addition to the ever-present house cleaning | shopping | chores):
+ Pilates (hopefully it won’t be cancelled per last week)
+ read Joe/Frank’s NDIS information. His plan has been approved, which is super exciting! Now we have to work out how to implement it (reams to read)
+ try for my first monthly internet-free day (aiming for Sunday). Still to be established whether I can use the computer – or whether I should be completely tech-free.
+ complete small two house improvement projects (to be determined)
+ very small run
**But hey, at least I’m doing it from my desk and not the bed – so we’ll call it kind of achieved.
Good thing today: delicious tiny biscuits that came with my coffee this week (road testing a new cafe)
Finally came to a couple of ideas for the year – I suspect my ideas had been largely tapped out by compiling the 60before60 list!
I’ll reflect on 2017 in another post (possibly in July at this rate), but I’d like to achieve the following things this year – no pressure if I don’t**:
- Complete a minimum of 10 items from the 60before60 list
- Get back to 5:2. I’ve put on about 10kg in the last year which I am not at all jazzed by. Exception given for holidays.
- 1x day per month internet-free. Stretch goal of 2x per month (crazy!)
- Exercise – on the regular. Weekly pilates/yoga + 3x cardio at a minimum
- Don’t buy anything unnecessary. Try to repair, repurpose, reuse as much as possible
- Commence a decent skincare routine. I’m looking all raggedy.
- Take the time to comment on blogs. I’ll often have an excellent post open in a tab for days, meaning to comment and then feel like the moment has passed, so I close it.
- Make a Giant list of household maintenance tasks and accomplish them – painting, gap filling – that sort of thing.
** Who am I kidding, of course there will be pressure.
Good thing today: survived first day back on 5:2 – feeling like an Achiever!
I really don’t much care for advising anyone that we’ve restructured them out of the organisation. Alas this was my primary task today. The victim of the discussion was the equivalent of my 2IC and PA, and my daily coffee buddy for almost two years.
Fortunately he took the news pretty well – though didn’t see it coming. Also fortunately, he’ll have absolutely no issues finding a new (higher-paying) gig quite quickly.
I’m glad that is behind me – such an unpleasant and stressful task which weighs heavily on everyone.
While walking to grab the car from Don this afternoon I was forced from the sidewalk onto a flower-lined path:
Unexpected and really very nice.
(ZOMG – I wrote sidewalk rather than footpath – my americanisation continues, or rather americanization?)
Good thing today: unexpected floral borders
Hearts on coffee
This one from the grounds – celebratory brunch just after the all clear from the breast screen callback earlier this month.
* possibly first in an intermittent series
And oops – completely forgot I was trying to do this … Good thing today: delighted in reading the clever guts diet – who knew innards were so extremely interesting?
taiwanese pineapple kitty cake (gift from joan)
All up pretty decent on the actions list for today.
As yesterday, I don’t know why I’m avoiding coming up with not-resolutions | annual projects – usually I adore this activity! It’s only just occurred to me that my current mental state is really less than ideal – so there’s that. I know the cure for this is cardio (or indeed any exercise that is not walking**) – must get on that from tomorrow. And more self care – possibly along the lines of not beating myself up when I can’t write a damn list.
One of the most successful actions was the not thinking about SML – there’s quite a bit going on there, so good to have it out of my head for a bit.
** I generally walk a couple of kms a day – doesn’t do much at all on the mood elevation front.
fight against capitalism | for a world without money or masters
I’m not entirely sure where the weekend has gone (mostly tidying/pottering and a couple of small projects), but thankfully I have one more day before I return to SML!
Things I will absolutely do tomorrow:
+ write up the February 2017 food list. I’m aiming for one month a day, much less daunting than trying to do the whole year at once (or two years – given that I haven’t posted 2016 either)
+ decide on photo enlargements for our “office” and organise printing
+ clean worm farm – sadly all worms didn’t make it even half-way through summer, so I’m disassembling and returning to the faux compost bin
+ write up my 2018 not-resolutions / projects (normally I love doing this – no idea why I’m avoiding)
+ sit quietly and embroider
+ avoid thinking of that axe I must wield this week
For the longest time I’ve been writing my daily post (except for the really lengthy ones) on the ipad in bed. In an effort to try to not shove a giant blue light in my face before sleep, I’ve returned to my desk. I must say this feels super-weird, but definitely has more of the old school blogging feel about it.